Its ok to be Weak

Hello once again! Well you know how many of us like to put on a front to show that we're strong. Well this weekend has been a time to reflect on this mistake in which I'm a huge victim of.

Well it all started on Wednesday when I was so tired after a long day in school, then after going for meeting. After that I lost control of my calmness and just started bursting out in stress and anger. At that time luckily I was at Jalan Kayu having supper. But then after I went home, I ask god this question, "Lord is it ok for the strong to be weak sometimes?". At that point I was really hurting inside cause I was struggling so much with this.

So last night as I was sharing with some of my close friends, I realized that I had alot of stuff inside my heart which was covered with layers of putting on fronts of strength. Also I feel that many of us especially us guys are afraid to open up too. But I've gotta say that after i shared from my heart, I felt so happy and at peace.

Well I used to have this really stupid way of thinking that if I shared my deepest struggles, it'll seem that I'm weak. I guess it comes with my pride, but i feel that the moment i let jesus in and shared, my heart just felt so much lighter. But I really praise god for giving me grace and strength to admit my mistake. I really can never do it by my strength at all.

Then I realised that we are the little children of God & its ok to be weak sometimes! But now I'm really trying to be more humble and also to have grace to ask for help and guidance when I am struggling. So I think ultimately God's message for me this weekend is "To let more people into this Heart!"

Yup Praise You O God for this!