Desire for Ministry to be alive everyday

From the time I answered the invitation to return to God last year, I made a promise and also request to God. This promise was sort of a stipulation I had placed before God as I return to doing the work of God again.

I told God,
“Lord Jesus, if I return to you to serve you in your vineyard, I have 1 request to ask of you. Lord, may the work I do for you in wherever you call me to serve ever become a job and so mundane that it becomes so ordinary and boring. But Lord, may you enlighten me always and make my journey & ministry become extraordinary, exciting & enjoyable.”

But lately, this has been the main struggle for me. Ever since I’ve started working in OCBC bank as my holiday job, I have been finding it so difficult to manage my time and also keep up in my spiritual life. Its been a real bothering thought for weeks as enter into somewhat a state that I have always disliked. It’s a state when ministry become so normal and also something I experienced some years back but whenever I talked to people about it the common answer I received was that it was all part of ministry. But as in many of the posts I’ve written, I have always diminished the thought of living a mundane life.

But despite this struggle, God has never once left me alone. It was always God who directed me especially in times of struggle and desperation for something special to happen. But I truly praise God for this realization of my life becoming too mundane. It has also been in this process of realization when God has shown me the difference in the power of God and the power of humans. As there’s been many times in the previous weeks where I have missed out on my prayer time, in those times, I have been facing the struggle of going beyond human limitations to reach somewhere I have been in the past. But this is a true testimony of how we can never be in the presence of God without the grace & strength given from God. And it is truly through our efforts of prayer where we receive this strength & grace.

But today God reminds me to come to the throne of grace to receive him as I am with all my struggles & limitations placed at the foot of the cross. And this is also a true fact that all the dreams & desire to more like Jesus and to never make life mundane is all from God as all these desires leads me closer to God! So Lord Jesus, I praise you for this important realization and I prayed that my spiritual walk with you will always be alive & active just like the Word of God!