Yes after all that has happened, an awesome YISS and the wonderful SFX youth camp. God had been so great and generous with his gifts and love, which made this past week more difficult to handle.
Well, what happened was that I experienced extreme spiritual dryness which started on Monday. I'm not really sure if it’s ended but it’s much better so ya that's the brighter side of things. This week was a real test of how much I really believe in this god. For the whole week, I kept trying and trying to seek him and find joy in him. I tried listening to worship songs and then praise songs, then tried going for mass and also tried the morning joy practice. But still it was the same. After trying and trying non-stop, I got very tired and just waited for my parish's penitential service for Christmas, even confessions didn't help much. At this state, it got really tiring, then I just asked god, "What is happening Lord?" and I just felt god telling me to wait on him and be patient and also felt that he'd reveal real soon.
This was extra tough on me because I've always felt that Spiritual dryness was something that I didn't really believe in and now it was happening to me and I guess god wanted me to experience it so that I could help those in this state in future. It’s always been the case for my experiences. God always lets me experience all the tough times so that I can help those who'll be experiencing this too. I guess this happens because god made me in such a way that I've gotta be strong and just trust. That's part of his master plan for me i guess.
Anyway, Friday came and I was really looking forward to my first Amplify Ministries Friday session. So ya despite all the struggles, god instilled this excitement within my heart. And when I reached CSC, I was greeted with such comfort from the Amplify people. So ya it was nice. As we started the session, P&W was good as usual. During P&W, god revealed quite abit to me. God revealed that the battles I was facing, were going to be the kind of battles I would be facing in 2008. God also said that "YES, next year will be a big year for us but that doesn't mean that the battles would just disappear." God also revealed that the spiritual dryness would be some of the battles I would face again in 2008! God went on to say that "He has already built his house in my heart and its a strong & firm house! That from now on, I need not fear if God is really there and that I need not doubt whether its really the voice of God talking to me, and especially in times of struggle, to just talk to him and trust in him" So this helped me feel much better and I felt joy again!
Then after P&W, we had a time of testimony for all that god had done for us in 2007! And yes I testified of how great god has been to me and I also shared the new mission god set for me, also not forgetting the awesome gift of tongues! So ya I'm back to the good old joyful ways! And I'm finally feeling happy and excited about the coming of Jesus Christ, the awesome and wholesome King! So ya it looks really good! I also wanna thank all who were listening to the Joy and struggles I received throughout the year especially my awesome CELL! Praise God!
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Well said.
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