Claim the Lord as your God

Well today as I was having silent time in ado. I was reflecting on the love of god! Cause unfortunately, I fell into sin yet again. I wasn't feeling so good but as I thinking of the many aspects of the love of god, I started to ask god,"Lord, How can you count us worthy of your love when we have so many times turned our back you through sin? I mean we are always accepted by you and your love. Don't you get upset or angry when we fall into and turn against you? It all seems too good to be true lord." Then after reflecting for abit, I received an answer which was that our god doesn't think like us humans. He doesn't get angry or upset like us and he doesn't love us like humans do. His love for us will somehow never end.
I guess I've been feeling this way cause I'm so afraid to face god when I sin. I mean he's god you know! So as I continued to talk to god, he revealed that when Jesus was sent into this world, God showed the world what kind of god he really and also what kind of love he gives to us abundantly. But after my silent time, I still was feeling that the little void in my heart was there but then god just said to claim in faith and that in time to come he will reveal why this keeps happening, this repeated phase of falling into sin and then try to come back to god. I claim in faith that there is true reason for this to happen. So I will just have to cling onto my saving God in faith! So hang in there for those in the darkness, for the light is extremely near! Just claim in faith in Jesus name!

The great month of December

It’s that time of the year again! A lot of Leaders have said that this year would be a great year for all followers of Jesus. A lot of us all are preparing. And as I was typing out this post, I was thinking “What are we preparing for? Not sure, but we’ll all just prepare!” We all must be ready when the Lord call us, so maybe it’s the Lord’s coming? Not sure myself!

But December is just awaiting to unfold. There’s just so much excitement.

6-9 December The most awesome and wonderful YISS (Only 10 days left)

14-16 December The wonderful SFX Youth Camp 2007

25 December This tops everything with the Birth of Our precious and awesome Lord Jesus Christ

Friends, there is just so much to be happy about!

Happy! Joy! Happy! Joy! Happy! Joy!

Praise God! Praise God! Praise God!

How to carry on living happy with God?

Well such a great weekend, yet again I'm in that place where I so happy and I just want to be with god. And so today asked God,” Lord, I'm feeling very happy now but Lord I always struggle on how to continue especially with school and all. Also now that I've to study more. So how Lord?" God then said "My child, what's most important that you will show them this light to the ones who are in darkness. For now you have to bring Jesus to everyone else you meet in your days. As you preserve in all this, stay faithful in prayer everyday. For I the Lord your god will sustain you!"

Well I think alot of us struggle in this but I think this may be an answer for alot of us as God's servants. We all need to continuously try our best to be faithful to god in prayer and to let there be a god who exist in us 24 hours a day, 7 days a week and 365 days a year. Not just having him in us when we are on a spiritual highness. For its all these camps and retreats which will set us on fire but we need to keep this fire hot and burning in us with prayer. So let's all encourage each other on this walk with our gracious Lord! Also let's try yet again to show this man Jesus to everyone we meet. Praise God!

God turns the worst weekend into the best weekend

The god is really awesome! Well it all started on Saturday when I had cell. I was very excited for cell but in my 1 hour wait in junction 8, there were alot of stuff which came up. Like all of a sudden, someone called and told me that my youth group were doing canteen on Sunday. Then I was thinking. "What is God trying to pull on me now?". Cause we actually will take at least 2 weeks to plan for our canteen duty. Now I had only a few hours to plan for one. So started to panic quite a bit cause we already were having a spiritual preparation for the Youth Camp and I was leading in worship. Then after thinking, I remember that another youth group were going to have a bake sale on Sunday. So after calling their representative, they agreed to have their bake sale in the canteen. I just am so sure that god was had this all wonderfully planned already. But at that moment, I was so tired already, still walking around aimlessly in Junction 8 with my guitar on my back. So I finally found Gavin, we headed off to Sury's house for Cell. Even when we reached there, I wasn't much in the mood to continue for cell but i just said a prayer and told god that I know all this has happened for a reason.

So we started with me playing the guitar for a short P&W session before our sharing started. We had a good P&W and surprisingly I had a good rhythm for all the songs which is definitely by god grace. Then I was so so touched by the cell when they all applauded me for some nice music. Although I appreciated alot, I was really in a state of exhaustion and tiredness. So as we carried on with our sharing, Paul gave his long a inspiring sharing, who I was seeing for the first time. He's actually is taking his degree in Australia. So for everyone, it was a real happy sight to have him back. Anyway he was sharing alot of stuff which had alot of relation to my thoughts over the past few weeks which I will reveal in future posts. So after everyone else shared, I shared the last. And I left Cell feel very very tired and disappointed cause normally after Cell I would be feeling very recharged.

Anyway it was Sunday and I was in church and feeling very uneasy still about my thoughts. So then I went for mass with becks and a few of the YISS people. And I just lifted up all my feelings and I just took in faith that god will revive me through the Eucharistic celebration which always happens. During mass, I was thinking what to prepare for the session later and God told to just specially talk about the wonders of god. And after mass, I was feeling much much better and happier. Well there still were more hiccups, cause the slides of the songs and all weren't in my thumb drive but somehow we just typed out and also we didn't have the promotion slide of the YISS and we needed it cause the YISS people were coming to publicize the YISS. Yet again god provided with Becks thumb drive. Then all of a sudden, the projector in the room wasn't working but yet again god provided with a backup. Then I was thinking that you know, the devil has been trying to destroy this whole weekend but I could really see that "God always wins". And we had a really good worship session and I could really feel the presence of God from the very start of the session. From then on it just got from good to awesome. After the YISS people talked about YISS and amplify, Becks gave a true testimony of the saving power of our great Lord! And I guess this weekend has taught me to always CLAIM the lord our king and saviour in faith! Praise God!

God will take care of Me!

Hello once again! Well over the past few weeks, one of my biggest worries has been my studies for this semester in poly. Although many times I've told people that poly is not so difficult. Well I've been really worried cause I was struggling in almost every module but I am to be blame for all this. Before I started school this semester, I was thinking to myself that maybe I should be even more slack in school and maybe concentrate more on church work. So from the start of the semester, I've been missing quite a few lectures but after doing this for 4 weeks, I really got worried. So this week I actually studied on a weeknight during a period where the exams are still far away. This may seem usual for many of you but not for me. Then I had this weird thought, "Would Jesus miss any Lectures?". I knew for a fact that he would never slack at all in school, no matter how busy he was healing people or spreading the word & love of god.

So this week, I've been studying more and also praying too. And while typing out this post, I could really feel the presence of god dwelling upon me. Its a feeling of reaffirming that it is the Lord who is here and confirming all this. So as this week of school has just ended, I am on a much better level of understanding for all my modules. But God has really given me grace to take courage to admit that I'm struggling in school and also to ask for help. Yet again, all this are from the works of God. I can never ever be smart but its really the Lord who make me smart! I am sure that this experience was a reminder that it has been God who's been helping in every aspect of my life especially my studies! Praise God!

God remembers his faithful

Well I fell into sin yet again and then the thoughts of whether I really want to follow this man, jesus and all his works. I started to think, "After all this, would God really want me back to continue building his kingdom?". Like there are so many more people who are more faithful than me. But on saturday at mass, I ask Jesus to guide me and i just offered up this intenion for mass. Then last sunday's gospel gives alot of encouragement to god's faithful, then to top things off, the sermon was even more excellent cause Father Gererd was talking about this movie that will come out soon. The name of the movie is "The Golden Compass". Its a movie about how there is no god and that all his people like the priest are fake and all. Then I thought that this is like so much more worst than the Da vinci code. I mean its so unreal cause if God isn't real than how can anyone explain how jesus who died on the cross and 3 days later rise from the dead! We catholics should show the world how real our god really is! Anyway Father continued to link it with the gospel because the gospel was about "Being ready for the Lord's coming!" and he also continued to say that no matter what God always Wins. After hearing those words, I was thinking that there was no clearer message from God to me and that He wants me to come back and to continue to desire for this living god!

But I really feel that this fall into sin has really strengthen me cause I want to serve Jesus even more this time. So I guess that this experience has really taught me to be open to what god has set before us especially temptation. But if we fall, we are always called to fall back on our saving God! For God has created the strong for a reason which always to strengthen the weak. So to all those who are weak at this moment, find grace,humility and openess to ask the people around you for strength! And please trust me, God is Real! Cause the posts in this blog are all fromour Almighty and ever living God! Praise god! God Bless!

We have a never-changing God

Well this revealation is really exciting! You know how as the years pass by things change,people change and basically everything changes! We as humans are very concern about what others think of us. Like we change things in ourselves because its the way this world would accept us. For example, many guys find that their not good looking enough to attract a certain girl so they change their appearance so as to gain some attention. Basically we care so much on how we'll be able to suit this world and not the other way around.

Well god has been talking to me about this. I've been asking god, "Lord, why has the world & its people change so much?" The god just said, "Child, the world always changes but the only one that doesn't change is me, your god. It is I, the same god who created Earth, who lead Moses and the Isralities out of egypt, who sent his son into earth to die on the cross for our sins, the same lord who called Peter & Paul to preach fearlessly about the god who saves!" We always try to ask god to suit our needs but when do we actually try to listen to god? I guess it was god way of telling me that he's always here for me and that his love will never alter as I take this step forward in faith!

Also in the past weeks I've been asking god to change me into the person he wants me to be. Well my cell would know that I'm sort of in a formation period in my walk with god. Well I've been asking for humility. Especially in this week, god has given me the grace to be really open to his teaching and also to his will. Like this morning as it was raining, I only had a bright pink umbrella, then I thought to myself, "What would everyone think when they see me with a pink umbrella?". Then God reminded me that it doesn't matter what anyone thinks of you but what is important is that you keep yourself dry. Although many of us would see this situation as something stupid or funny, it is actually in all these small things where we should change first before we can move on to change the more serious problems about myself. Praise God!

Fighting for our Faith

In the past week, there's this nun whose been staying with my family. She's actually been very close to my family for many years. She and my mum are the best of friends. And in the weeks before she came, I've been doubting god and his works quite alot. Time and again god reveals to me that its him who is here. It was just the perfect timing that the nun was here cause the doubts were all cleared and I think it was god's way of instilling conviction in my faith as I continue to grow with god. But this wasn't the end of our wonderful god and his suprises.

The nun actually brought this up. You know how alot of us are actually think about what people would think of ourselves by the things we do or say or even the things we believe in. Well the nun said, "Why do alot of Catholics fear making the sign of the cross so visibilly before we eat? or "why do so many Catholics fear having more conversations abt god and their walk with god?" And so after all these questions, I started to think to myself that actually I'm also very concern about what others think of me. But over the past week, the main msg has been about standing up in faith. Standing up for what we believe in and most of our teachings are in the bible. Actually this morning, while walking to the bus-stop, I was talking to god and then I was so happy with god that I started in some sense continue to reaffirm myself that it is god who is here. I guess alot of it was about not just praise god but doing it with real conviction! I personally believe conviction is so important in our journey cause it sustains us especially when we're down. Ultimately, today is about Standing up in faith and also guarding it! Praise god!

Simple Sunday

Sunday is the day when god said that it shall be day of rest! Ever since i've been in ministry, Sunday has been a day of going for mass and then going for session with my community. And for me since then, it was a day just devoted plainly to god alone. I don't know about everyone else but even if I was blind, I'd know when sunday comes around. It's just that feeling that the day of Lord is here. And when I go to church and see all my community people, its just a feeling of warmth that just goes through my heart!

So today, there was a birthday celebration so there wasn't any session as it was i suprise kinda thing. At first, I was a little upset but then my saving god came to save the day for me. God said " Child, Today shall be a day of simplicity!" So this sunday was really taking delight in the simple things especially mass and also the simple fellowship with my community as well as a simple sibling bonding as we had lunch together without the parents. So yup the message for the weekend has been about having a simple faith! Keep it simple god says! Praise god! There will be more posts in the week! So check it out!

The true voice of God

The start of this week has just been a really difficult day for me. For me, it felt like I was in a huge pit hole which is just too tall for me to even attempt to get out of this. It was so difficult to even hold myself together in school. I really had no idea at that point what has lead up to that mess.For the whole of monday, I'd been thinking about what I was even feeling at that moment. And at the end of it all, I couldn't even answer myself. The closest answer I got to maybe was then I'm too weak for such a spiritual formation. And I'm quite sure what his main message has been and its be patient. I guess its just taken a toll on me. But another thing that I had experienced was a not so good weekend cause the weekend has been one where I had to go to the cemetary so I missed my precious sunday. But then Throughout the whole week, I decided to not think too much about it. Not to forget about this mess but only to place very little thought about this.

So after thinking for awhile, I felt very confused about god. It was like I didn't know when he was talking to me. I experience extreme confusion on whether the devil was trying to tempting me to conclude that it wasn't god or was it god talking to me! It was a really tough time but then I took courage on tuesday to go for morning mass. But in the morning as I was saying my morning prayer, the message was "My Child, you know me & my works! So just take faith in that!". So when I went for mass, I just lifted up in prayer with faith the message, my feelings & my whole being. Then the gospel as well as the sermon all confirmed everything I lifted up at mass. After mass, I just felt so much at peace. But one of the amazing things was that this was the first time in like 2 years that I went for morning mass! And throughout the whole day, the message of "My Child, you know me & my works! So just take faith in that!"

And so there was a reason for me to fall so badly until this. The saying of "From every failure, comes success!" is just ever so true. But really god has given strength do be able to come out of this positively. For god is making himself more and more real in my life! Praise god!

Pick yourself up, my Child

In the evening when I went for mass, I was feeling really low and down. There was a huge lead up to all this actually cause throughout today I've been really frustrated that I didn't study and also not doing anything productive. Then as I went for mass, I started to lose my patience with everything starting from the state of mind I was in. Then throughout the whole mass god kept telling me to be patient and wait on him. Then I started to lose my patience with god as well and was starting to wonder why this was happening to me today. Then after complaining and complaining to god about this and that, he said to me very sternly, "Stop and listen! Now that you've fallen down, don't waste time complaining about the past but pick yourself up and try again not to make the same mistake". Then I felt so scared but was reaffirmed by his message and reminded myself that its all part of my formation cause my times I'll turn my friends, the environment or songs when I'm down but the one i should turn to first is god actually.

So I guess that today was a learning experience for me again. It also boils down to being humble and to accept that I've made mistake and not be silent about it and put on a front for everyone cause it does nothing good. Although god knows about our mistakes,he still wants us to admit that we've fallen. But ya its been a good experience today although many would say that it's too harsh but our god knows what he needs to do to make us come back. And I know for a fact that nobody has ever provided such perfect love like our god provides!

How much do we really trust God?

Well this thought came to my mind on Saturday. But how much of our precious lives, do we really trust god with? You know how when ever we struggling and our friends tell us that we should just trust in god. But I think we start to question ourselves and ask "How do we trust god?"

Well god asked me many times, "Do you ever think I'll abandon you or give you less than what you want?". There are many times when we're in this situation, like there was once I liked someone but god told me that she's not the one for you but actually I've reserved for you someone else. There's been many times I've questioned god and said "Why lord, why? and when is the time lord?", then he just says to me "Be patient, my child. For I am molding you until you are ready for the one I've chosen for you". And throughout this whole week, I've been doubting god's message and every time I ask him for a sign, he's given me one and then I'll just smile and laugh at god! I guess its all part of being patient and trusting our complete lives with him. And its not just relationships but also like our financial matters and our dreams, for he alone knows whats best for you.

Another situation in which I'm totally marveled at is that every month, I need at least $200 to survive but for past month and as well at the next 2 months, I'll have to survive on $50. Many of my friends have told me, "Are you insane trying to survive on $50?" and I'll tell them that "god will provide" and many of my friends tell me that there's a time to trust God and there's a time to be realistic but I think that this is the kind of faith we need to have in him all the time. And so far I've survived! Haha! Well what god has done for me is that he's sustained me not just in feelings but also financially and it all shows that he'll ensure we'll be happy and well if we trust him with our lives! For those who always think that I'm in pain and so sad because of my financial situation, well actually I've been feeling the total opposite, friends!

And yet again the message is "Be patient and trust in me & also expect more from your god, my child!"

Be patient and have faith

This week has just been absolutely awesome! Just feeling so happy & joyful everyday especially on Wednesday. Its been about take delight in everything! Also prayer has been the main reason for the joy this week. Its also been really tough just sit and be still in ado too. But its something that god has said that its all part of my formation this year. So for this week it was all great and joy but on Friday, I was really great joy in the morning but then in the afternoon I was feeling a little empty. Then when I went ado in the evening, I was praying and god said that this journey you are on with me is not only about feeling joy but to also have faith and trust in me. For when someone starts to question my faith in the lord, I can firmly be on the ground and proclaim with real conviction that the lord is real and he is not only a god who'll give you joy but he'll give you faith too.

But I think that god's way of working within us is really amazing. Cause on Friday morning, I started really the book of acts from the bible and then, I felt once again so proud to be a follower of Jesus! For in acts, all the followers of Jesus were so strong in their faith and proclaiming of lord not because of the feelings they felt but it was actually that in their true faith in the lord.
For example, Peter and Paul were people who just went around the town fearlessly talking about the wonders of god. Then I started to break down in tear a little cause of the fact that I felt so unworthy to be called by god but then again I was reaffirmed by this message, "He has not called the qualified but he qualifies the called".

Then after that I just praised god for the reassurance that he really is here!