How much do we really trust God?

Well this thought came to my mind on Saturday. But how much of our precious lives, do we really trust god with? You know how when ever we struggling and our friends tell us that we should just trust in god. But I think we start to question ourselves and ask "How do we trust god?"

Well god asked me many times, "Do you ever think I'll abandon you or give you less than what you want?". There are many times when we're in this situation, like there was once I liked someone but god told me that she's not the one for you but actually I've reserved for you someone else. There's been many times I've questioned god and said "Why lord, why? and when is the time lord?", then he just says to me "Be patient, my child. For I am molding you until you are ready for the one I've chosen for you". And throughout this whole week, I've been doubting god's message and every time I ask him for a sign, he's given me one and then I'll just smile and laugh at god! I guess its all part of being patient and trusting our complete lives with him. And its not just relationships but also like our financial matters and our dreams, for he alone knows whats best for you.

Another situation in which I'm totally marveled at is that every month, I need at least $200 to survive but for past month and as well at the next 2 months, I'll have to survive on $50. Many of my friends have told me, "Are you insane trying to survive on $50?" and I'll tell them that "god will provide" and many of my friends tell me that there's a time to trust God and there's a time to be realistic but I think that this is the kind of faith we need to have in him all the time. And so far I've survived! Haha! Well what god has done for me is that he's sustained me not just in feelings but also financially and it all shows that he'll ensure we'll be happy and well if we trust him with our lives! For those who always think that I'm in pain and so sad because of my financial situation, well actually I've been feeling the total opposite, friends!

And yet again the message is "Be patient and trust in me & also expect more from your god, my child!"