Pick yourself up, my Child

In the evening when I went for mass, I was feeling really low and down. There was a huge lead up to all this actually cause throughout today I've been really frustrated that I didn't study and also not doing anything productive. Then as I went for mass, I started to lose my patience with everything starting from the state of mind I was in. Then throughout the whole mass god kept telling me to be patient and wait on him. Then I started to lose my patience with god as well and was starting to wonder why this was happening to me today. Then after complaining and complaining to god about this and that, he said to me very sternly, "Stop and listen! Now that you've fallen down, don't waste time complaining about the past but pick yourself up and try again not to make the same mistake". Then I felt so scared but was reaffirmed by his message and reminded myself that its all part of my formation cause my times I'll turn my friends, the environment or songs when I'm down but the one i should turn to first is god actually.

So I guess that today was a learning experience for me again. It also boils down to being humble and to accept that I've made mistake and not be silent about it and put on a front for everyone cause it does nothing good. Although god knows about our mistakes,he still wants us to admit that we've fallen. But ya its been a good experience today although many would say that it's too harsh but our god knows what he needs to do to make us come back. And I know for a fact that nobody has ever provided such perfect love like our god provides!