The true voice of God

The start of this week has just been a really difficult day for me. For me, it felt like I was in a huge pit hole which is just too tall for me to even attempt to get out of this. It was so difficult to even hold myself together in school. I really had no idea at that point what has lead up to that mess.For the whole of monday, I'd been thinking about what I was even feeling at that moment. And at the end of it all, I couldn't even answer myself. The closest answer I got to maybe was then I'm too weak for such a spiritual formation. And I'm quite sure what his main message has been and its be patient. I guess its just taken a toll on me. But another thing that I had experienced was a not so good weekend cause the weekend has been one where I had to go to the cemetary so I missed my precious sunday. But then Throughout the whole week, I decided to not think too much about it. Not to forget about this mess but only to place very little thought about this.

So after thinking for awhile, I felt very confused about god. It was like I didn't know when he was talking to me. I experience extreme confusion on whether the devil was trying to tempting me to conclude that it wasn't god or was it god talking to me! It was a really tough time but then I took courage on tuesday to go for morning mass. But in the morning as I was saying my morning prayer, the message was "My Child, you know me & my works! So just take faith in that!". So when I went for mass, I just lifted up in prayer with faith the message, my feelings & my whole being. Then the gospel as well as the sermon all confirmed everything I lifted up at mass. After mass, I just felt so much at peace. But one of the amazing things was that this was the first time in like 2 years that I went for morning mass! And throughout the whole day, the message of "My Child, you know me & my works! So just take faith in that!"

And so there was a reason for me to fall so badly until this. The saying of "From every failure, comes success!" is just ever so true. But really god has given strength do be able to come out of this positively. For god is making himself more and more real in my life! Praise god!