Stop and come with me

Well last Saturday as I was sharing with my cell, pris talked about her vision was when she was praying with me and the rest too. It was a gift box from god. And inside the box was a stopwatch. When I heard that I was abit curious about why I got a stopwatch. Well obviously the first thought I had was that I was rushing to much in my day. i thought it was abit weird cause the pass few days I've been really free and joyful praise the lord especially on my way to school, which has been absolutely great! So during my day for today, I started to think on why I received a stopwatch from god?

As I was wondering about this, I realized that many times as I walked to the bus-stop on the way to school, I will be feeling full of joy as I passed the sun although you can see it from wherever you are. But I felt that I was praising god while I was doing something else. But I felt that actually of just walking continuously, I should have just stopped and exalt in the lord as I gazed upon the bright and shining sun.

Anyway as I was on my way to school this morning, I started to plan what I'm going to do after school all the way until night. So i decided to go home after school and then go ado. But when I reached home, I was quite tired and started to doze off. Then I felt god telling to rest first and at night to come away with him. So I just slept and then went to ado for an hour. And you know whenever I go to ado, I always have to bring my journal so that if I get restless, I can start writing instead of being still and quiet to listen to the voice of god. But when I went to ado earliar, I just sat down and talked to god for awhile and then I just was still and started to stop all thoughts coming to my mind and just dwell in the presence of the lord. It was so peaceful although it was a little difficult in the beginning but after awhile, it just felt like god was sitting beside me anmd whispering into my ear what he needed to tell me. The feeling was just so incredible!

So ultimately I understood why I receive a stopwatch from god, it was actually because he qwanted me to always stop and come waay with him more often and not just when I troubled. The stopwatch was given to me to prove that I'm in charge of what I do everyday and I'm in control of my time and I can choose whether I should come away with him. For many times, we say that we haven't had time to spend time with the lord but actually its because we're in such a hurry in this life that we fail to just some for moment.

But the main message from my silent time with god earlier was "To be Patient" in all I do especially the things I ask in prayer to. But I'm really happy with what god is teaching me! Praise God!

Joyful Monday

Wow this monday morning was so awesome and great! I've always hated my monday because its like the start of the week. But as I was praying this morning, I asked god to grant me grace and strength to to rejoice on this monday morning!So as I was walking to the bus-stop, as always I'll talk to god. So I tried to recall what I enjoyed most about my morning walks to the bus-stop in my previous semester. Then I remembered that it was the bright and shining sun in the morning which made my days so enjoyable.

Then I started to wonder why the sun made me so happy. I mean the sun make us so unhappy sometimes especially when we dress up so good looking and all and then this sun make us sweat. Sweat is something that alot of us hate especially the girls. Haha! Then after thinking for a while, the reason the sun makes me so happy is because it shows me how bright, radiant and how huge the love of god is! Then I guess I really just started to take delight and exault in the lord, our Creator! Then after that, in the bus, I was wondering whether I should sms my close friends on this great joy, then remembering what pris tan said about receiving more joyful morning messages from me. But then I said to myself, "With such great and awesome joy and delight like this, it'll be cruel to keep it to myself". So I just sms my close friends. From then on, my monday has been filled with joy and suprises from daddy god! But the real test will be on wednesday when I've school until 7pm! Haha!

Praise You O mighty God! Let's all yearn for the love of god!

Its ok to be Weak

Hello once again! Well you know how many of us like to put on a front to show that we're strong. Well this weekend has been a time to reflect on this mistake in which I'm a huge victim of.

Well it all started on Wednesday when I was so tired after a long day in school, then after going for meeting. After that I lost control of my calmness and just started bursting out in stress and anger. At that time luckily I was at Jalan Kayu having supper. But then after I went home, I ask god this question, "Lord is it ok for the strong to be weak sometimes?". At that point I was really hurting inside cause I was struggling so much with this.

So last night as I was sharing with some of my close friends, I realized that I had alot of stuff inside my heart which was covered with layers of putting on fronts of strength. Also I feel that many of us especially us guys are afraid to open up too. But I've gotta say that after i shared from my heart, I felt so happy and at peace.

Well I used to have this really stupid way of thinking that if I shared my deepest struggles, it'll seem that I'm weak. I guess it comes with my pride, but i feel that the moment i let jesus in and shared, my heart just felt so much lighter. But I really praise god for giving me grace and strength to admit my mistake. I really can never do it by my strength at all.

Then I realised that we are the little children of God & its ok to be weak sometimes! But now I'm really trying to be more humble and also to have grace to ask for help and guidance when I am struggling. So I think ultimately God's message for me this weekend is "To let more people into this Heart!"

Yup Praise You O God for this!

School again

Well I'm back to school. Actually I was so happy to hear when i first entered poly but this semester is such a put off. This week i started my semester 2 of my diploma course and I wan't really looking forward to start school again cause i finish school so late from monday to thursday. Also cause I've never been exposed to such a school schedule.

But then god told me told to actually take this semester as a challenge and also use the mid-day breaks as a time to study. So ya so ever since hearing that message, I've been really feeling the presence of god ever so strongly. You know its like so unbelievable. Many people always say that they don't feel the presence of god when they're down, but for me it was the total opposite, God's presence was even stronger this time.

But i think that it boils down to how we are to God cause the closer we are to god, the easier we can be sensitive to the promptings of the Holy Spirit. But its not easy though, it takes alot of effort!

What grace from god does

All my life I always wondered what the word Grace means? You know how we always feel so guilty whenever we are in prayer or P&W and we feel so unworthy to be a child of god. Well I am huge victim of that. Then like a couple of weeks ago, god taught me to take the effort to come back to him. He taught me to firstly, accept my mistake and secondly to try again to avoid sin again. So I tried it out and it was really amazing and magical. I could really feel the presence of god especially when I turn down the devil and decided to go with Jesus instaed. It really felt like all the angels in heaven were rejoicing and dancing for there was a child out there chose god instead of the Devil. And really its the feeling that everyone will get when they start to really live for God. As i started to really once again live out the day for god alone, i felt like i was just walking with Jesus along the beach and just chatting and hanging out with him! I guess that the reward. Its really the best feeling in the world.

You know how everyone says that there are seasons in our life, well I don't really believe in that cause i think we just need to have a little faith in god that he'll take care of us not just in good times but in bad times too. i guess we just need to put in a little effort on out part and god will do the rest. Its like, the door can only open if we decide to first walk up to the door and touch the knob of the door and god will give us the power to open the door. But at the same we need to constantly ask for strengh from god.

But I am really happy now cause I've fallen again to be madly in love with my daddy god yet again. Praise you oh mighty and lovely god!

My personal mission from God

The lord said that he'll reveal the most important to his little children. You know our parents tell us when we're young about how we should behave during mass & prayer. Well as we grow up, we learn to compromise with all of this, like instead of switching of our phones, messaging during mass or even talking during prayer and mass. For me, this was god message for me today. Its not about thinking to perfect the huge stuff in ministry but its actually about perfecting basic and most simple things in our faith. I think this really when God slowly reveals things to us. So from now on, I'm first gonna try to be a person to perfect the simple things in my faith and not attempting the perfection of the huge this in my faith! Praise God!

Welcome

Hello Everyone! Welcome to my blog. I am Mark Sebastian Abraham from St. Francis Xavier Church. I'm in the youth group there called Youth Vineyard. Anyway I'm currently studying in Temasek Poly. Actually over years, I didn't like the idea of a blog but after much thought, I feel that its important to share my personal revealations of my god! Hope you enjoy! God bless!