Of late there’s been this sense of desire for my search of something that can’t really be put in words. I think that part of this is because, there is the constant yearning for something that is more holy, godly & extraordinary. Its really something so hard to describe.
But the past 2 months have really been the toughest for me, in the aspect where there have been many challenges from God. And many of these challenges have been about being more consistent in my prayer life. I think I’m also reaching a point in my spirituality where my life belongs to God. In the past, its about following but not really submitting totally to his plan for me. But of late, its really about surrendering my life to God and living out the plan he has for me.
Many of my close friends would have realized that there’s been a sense of dryness within me in the aspect of my outward joy. Yet at this point of time, I still am not able to explain why this has happened. But over this phase in my walk with God, I’ve come to trust more in God and be more dependent on God. Its been so tough still because many would know that I love being joyful but in this time, its really about trusting that God must have a reason for this. But its not been no joy at all. There has been joy, but in really short spell of joys. But still I praise God that despite the dryness in joy, I’ve still been growing and trusting God more with my life.
And I guess in many ways, this joy is what I’ve been yearning for and I am sure in God’s own time he will release this heavenly joy unto me. I await for this heavenly joy which my heart longs for day and night. And a deeper yearning in my heart is to live my life for God in a way where its never ordinary. Praise God!
But the past 2 months have really been the toughest for me, in the aspect where there have been many challenges from God. And many of these challenges have been about being more consistent in my prayer life. I think I’m also reaching a point in my spirituality where my life belongs to God. In the past, its about following but not really submitting totally to his plan for me. But of late, its really about surrendering my life to God and living out the plan he has for me.
Many of my close friends would have realized that there’s been a sense of dryness within me in the aspect of my outward joy. Yet at this point of time, I still am not able to explain why this has happened. But over this phase in my walk with God, I’ve come to trust more in God and be more dependent on God. Its been so tough still because many would know that I love being joyful but in this time, its really about trusting that God must have a reason for this. But its not been no joy at all. There has been joy, but in really short spell of joys. But still I praise God that despite the dryness in joy, I’ve still been growing and trusting God more with my life.
And I guess in many ways, this joy is what I’ve been yearning for and I am sure in God’s own time he will release this heavenly joy unto me. I await for this heavenly joy which my heart longs for day and night. And a deeper yearning in my heart is to live my life for God in a way where its never ordinary. Praise God!
